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Dit nummer kende ik al jaren. Het staat op de cd Hotel New York van Anouk, die is grijs heb gedraaid. Kort na het uitkomen van deze cd overleed de vader van een vriendin. Ik stuurde haar dit nummer, vond hem zo mooi. Daarna werd het niet meer dan een van de vele mooie nummers van Anouk.

Tot dat we afgelopen zomer in NL in de auto zaten en dit nummer ineens op de radio kwam. Zo ineens, zonder waarschuwing leek dit nummer voor mij te zijn geschreven. Het benam me de adem en tranen stroomden me over de wangen.

I close my eyes 
And imagine you're here 
Did it all seem so hopeless 
Given the chance 
I would ask 
Forgive me 
I didn't do a thing to make you stay 
I didn't say a word to make you stay 
If I would have known 
Could I have tried to make it easier 
But I didn't do a thing 
Or say a word 
One word 

And I don't know why you're gone, now you're gone 
No beautiful goodbye 
You will never leave my mind 
And it turns out to be so much different than our dreams 
Now you're, you're a star in heaven 

My thoughts unsaid 
Stuck in my head 
And it all feels so useless 
Never forget to give all I have 
Forgive me 
I couldn't do a thing to make you stay 
And I couldn't say a word to make you stay 
If I could have known 
Could I have tried to make it easier 
But I couldn't do a thing 
Or say a word 
One word 

And I don't know why you're gone, now you're gone 
No beautiful goodbye 
You will never leave my mind 
And it turns out to be so much different than our dreams 
Now you're, yeah you're a star in heaven 

Still I don't know why you're gone, now you're gone 
No beautiful goodbye 
You will never leave my mind 
And it turns out to be so much different than our dreams 
Now you're, you're a star in heaven 
You're a star in heaven now 
You're a star in heaven 
Yeah you're my star